Welcome back to Free My Cure. My name is Nicola and I am a Terminal Stage 4 cancer patient. I turned to cannabis 4 years ago and I haven’t looked back since. I have improved my quality of life by 10 percent and I don’t plan on stopping here. Join me on the journey to find a cure for my cancer using cannabis!
Opioid addiction, is there really anything else said? Opioids include opiates, an older term that refers to such drugs derived from opium, including morphine itself. Other opioids are semi-synthetic and synthetic drugs such as hydrocodone, oxycodone and fentanyl; antagonist drugs such as naloxone; and endogenous peptides such as the endorphins. All of these drugs and their derivatives are highly addictive, this has been known since the early 1900’s.
So why are we just dealing with the addictive qualities in 2017, President Trump war on Opioids is better late than never. Yes as a Ph.D. I believe opioids and Big Pharma are killing people by the thousands, as a patient I believe there’s a time and a place for opioids. Patients still need to be able to responsibly access opioids for pain management, however, I believe with a good balance of Opioid and cannabis, more cannabis than opioids, a patients quality of life will improve.
I was addicted to Opioids for at least 10 years, I don’t remember most of those years between cancer, cancer treatment, and opioids I missed the best years of my kid’s lives and when I say they blame me for that, they really do, my oldest son still doesn’t talk to me. I was so drugged my kids did what they wanted to for a long time I wasn’t and I was in no shape to try to keep up with them. I lost the respect of my kids because of my addiction, it took a long time for me to be comfortable with myself to write this and even more comfortable to post it online, however I started using cannabis and at first it scared me, honestly it scared the hell out of me because I started analyzing my own life, I saw every mistake I have ever made flash in front of my eyes. I started to recognize my addiction, my fears, my strengths, but most of all I found clarity.
When I first started using cannabis I saw all my fuck ups, and there were a lot. First, it was time to clean house, I went through every medicine bottle in my house and started tossing pills into the toilet. Second, time to clean out the demons in my head, this took more time as you can imagine, I started to detox from the opioids and my oldest son made sure I didn’t run out of Medical Cannabis, and I hunkered down, sweating and detoxing for a couple of weeks. Then it was time to clean out the house, this also took awhile but when I finished about 6 months later. Yes, it took me 6 months to get comfortable again, comfortable enough to admit my mistakes, make the right changes in my life, and to feel human again.
Please don’t get me wrong I do use opioid pain medication when I’m in the hospital and when I’m in a lot of pain at home, I just made sure that my doctors know I acknowledge my addiction, they know when I’m bad I’ll ask for it but they never prescribe more than 12 pills per my request unless it’s Tylenol with Codeine. I believe we all have the right to a quality of life worth living, and we all need a little help sometimes, just know your strengths and weaknesses and adjust accordingly live like tomorrow isn’t guaranteed because it isn’t for any of us.
I chose Thanksgiving for this article because I’m thankful for cannabis. I’m thankful to be a year clean and sober from opioids. I’m thankful for all the relationships I have built and the family I have. Mostly though I thankful to all of you, all of you that have invited me into your homes to share your stories, all of you that tune in and log on to read my posts, all of you that share my video’s and blogs with other patients so maybe together we can help others fulfil their hopes and dreams, but mostly for all of you that are just like me trying to get through one day at a time with as much sanity as we started the day with. I love you guys Thank You!!!
“Sometimes you can only find Heaven by slowly backing away from Hell.” – Carrie Fisher
email anytime with your questions and journeys I would love to hear them.
STAY FREE, FLY HIGH, AND AS ALWAYS FUCK CANCER!